Rolayo's Journal is the very interesting story of a young lady. It's a journal that showcases what she passes through- the fun times, the not-so-fun times, the temptations and the trials of her every day life. It's a journal being kept for her unborn child who she plans to call-"Kikelomo"....It's being featured on this blog occasionally on Tuesdays...or Thursdays. Just incase you missed the last journal entry you could catch up HERE
Here's the 38th journal entry...Enjoy!
I don’t have a lot to say today.... I am trying to save time but still drop something in this space.
A friend of mine has told me like 100 times within the space of two weeks, to make sure I start keeping a journal- I agree with her. I know that I am about to step into some of the most interesting days yet. There would so many things worthy of being put in writing. I should probably document my journey with Jesus. It’s been beautiful so far, but I am convinced that there are endless things that the Holy Spirit still wants t teach me. I should write them down, maybe it would help someone else. I mean, imagine if Brother Paul didn’t write all those letters to all those churches and individuals.
I also know that there’s so much that I’m going to discover about other people. I have a mild phobia for meeting new people- worse than that, I don’t like large gatherings. But I know I have to learn to deal- it’s one of the things most successful people do- networking. There will also be a lot of lessons in tolerance. It’s not going to be easy, but then, I’ll still have to deal.
I’ll have a lot to document bout my emotional journey. I might feel anger a lot more than I have had to deal with in the past. It’d be interesting to go read through my journal on a random day and see some intense vexation pouring out from the pages and I’ll think aloud, “who’s this crazy person?” LOL! Apart from anger, there’s love. It’d be beautiful to read through the pages and smile at how I felt at a particular moment. Or how I dealt with issues that made me upset or another lesson I had just learnt about love.
I have come to admire this legend who has now passed away- Maya Angelou. REMARKABLE woman! Oh gosh! As I write this I even smile. She’s just wonderful. I watched a couple of her interviews on youtube- one thing I noticed is her laugh. It comes right from the belly and feels her eyes and she lets it out- rich and sincere. That’s a woman who LIVED her life. Taking the bad and turning it around to another story about hope. Taking the good and presenting it as a proof that you can still get happiness the world.
Maya Angelou said something that made me raise an eyebrow... Hehee! She said, “I don’t trust people who don’t laugh”. But if you come to think of it, why should you trust someone who doesn’t laugh?! What’s that all about?? But hey! I have digressed by like 180 degrees. She said something about people and friendships and relationships. Paraphrasing, she said that people may not remember what you said, but they will surely remember how you made them feel. And that’s truth. So it’d be great to write down how certain people- close or not so close- make me feel in the coming days.
PS: I’d probably end up not keeping that journal- because I just feel someone is going to snoop around and read all of that straight-from-the-heart stuff. Naaaah! Don’t want to deal with that.
PS 2: This is a journal.. But then, you know what I mean, one that isn’t a letter to you. Uncensored. LoL!