Rolayo's Journal is the very interesting story of a young lady. It's a journal that showcases what she passes through- the fun times, the not-so-fun times, the temptations and the trials of her every day life. It's a journal being kept for her unborn child who she plans to call-"Kikelomo"....It's being featured on this blog occasionally on Tuesdays...or Thursdays. Just incase you missed the last journal entry you could catch up HERE
Here's the 37th journal entry...Enjoy!
Title: "About Words"
How is it that people come up with weird ways to express their feelings? We have lips to say what we need to say and hearts from which to say them from. So sometimes we may wonder why we need punchlines to pass across a point. Let me explain with an example: Boy sees girl walking past looking nice and fresh. Boy scopes girl. Boy feels he likes girl. Then boy walks up to girl and says these words, “I just saw you walking past and I thought to myself, ‘gosh! She’s beautiful’. I want you to be the mother of my children.” Girl flees! Haha! This happened to me, and the guy was fresh oo, but chai!, that was too far.
It’s important to be honest when we speak. You want to be a person whose words can be trusted and believed. The kind of person whose words can be taken to the bank and cashed (whatever that means). There’s too much of flattery on people’s lips. A lot of times, you can’t just take words at face value- there’s usually a contrary undercurrent. It’s sad. Even I am guilty when it comes to saying things that have multiple meanings unintentionally. I think that comes with having the love for words- contouring and combining them to form something beautiful. I have this annoying fetish of saying something simple in a whole other (sometimes annoying) way. However, I do not say what I don’t mean. I weigh my words very careful. Just because you say you miss me, doesn’t mean I have to say I miss you back. I think about whether I miss you or not, before giving a reply. Also, because you say you love me, doesn’t mean I have to say that I love you back- I think about it... Do I know that I love love this person? And then I give a response.
I remember the first time ever my boyfriend told me he loved me... I can’t remember the exact day, or what we had been talking about, but he said it- and I remember my reaction. I became a bit aggravated within me. In my head, it was like, “why did you have to tell me this right now and mess with my emotions?” I know that it wasn’t his intention to cause me distress, and I know it’s not a big deal, but then, it’s who I am- I process words that are said to me, and I do same before I speak... most times.
I can’t remember how I replied, but I know what I said was pretty lame. His saying that made me honestly weigh my feelings for him. Do I really love him? Or was I just going about the notions. If I didn’t have to go through that moment of sincere heart inspection, I wouldn’t have come to the realization and knowing that, “yes, I love this awesome gentleman”. And now, I would say so- not hesitating. Bottomline: we should learn to say what we mean and mean what we say. That way, we wouldn’t string people along and give them false hope.
There’s no need to dress up the truth, you know. Just do YOU, live right, measure your words and live free. Even our minds would be at rest. It is fine to be Shake Spearean with our words, but then, it’s fair and noble to make sure that we mean every single thing we say, and to be ready to match them with actions. No empty promises please.